When Stephanie Catudal’s husband Rivs is placed in a medically induced coma during the height of the pandemic, she’s forced to relive a loss she never truly faced—the slow, painful death of her father from cancer.
As Rivs fights for his life, Steph finds herself reckoning with the trauma she buried for years. Her past unfolds in fragments: running away at sixteen, numbing her grief with addiction, and trying to escape a God she no longer trusted.
What begins as a vigil at her husband’s bedside becomes a confrontation with memory, meaning, and love itself.
Raw, lyrical, and unflinching, this memoir captures the chaos of holding on when everything is uncertain, and the quiet strength it takes to let love in, again.
